There are plenty of things in this adoption that scare me, but if I am being honest, the thing that scares me the most is the finances. Which is pretty sad if you think about it. Do I trust God, or don't I? I trick myself daily into thinking I'm in control of single-handedly raising the funds to bring our little guy home. I brainstorm about how many necklaces I have to sell in one day, how much I can cut out of our grocery budget, how much "couponing" do I need to do....you get the picture.
The reality is God has this. God cares for the orphan way too much not to.
I've been pretty sick the past few days and haven't been able to make a lot of jewelry. I was pretty stressed about it too. If I'm sick, I'm not stamping. If I'm not stamping, I'm not posting cute pictures of facebook to tempt people to buy stuff. If I'm not tempting people to buy stuff, then this adoption will never be paid for and it will be my fault because I have that much control, right? I sent my sweet hubby a text and asked him to buy 3 things at the store on his way home. Just 3 things. When he walked through the door, he had several bags....way more than 3 things. I panicked. "What did you buy and how much did you spend?" I jokingly began to needle him about how he had spent more and bought more than I asked and how he was cutting into our adoption budget. (Really folks, I promise I was just messing with him :o) So, he joked back and said "well, since you are giving me such a hard time about my lack of shopping restraint, I'm not going to share a surprise with you". I had no idea what he was talking about but I was intrigued. Then he pulled an envelope out of his laptop bag. I asked him "what's that? He said "open it and find out" with a very large smile on his face.
So I opened it.
Somebody had anonymously donated $1000 to our adoption. I was blown away. My friend Janice said "I love anonymous gifts... it's like something came straight from the hand of God." So true! I was even more touched by the note on the envelope "To bring him home". Be still my heart. When Mandy made our t-shirt design, she said she would tell her brother that she made the shirts "to bring you home".
God is so good.
I've added a fundraiser thermometer to my blog for a couple reasons. I suffer from deer in headlight syndrome bad. Like really bad. Really, really bad. This is a good visual for me to see just how God is moving "to bring him home". Also, to continue to help folks know about our need.
Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it. Malachi 3:10
You win God. You always do. And I am so thankful that you are Lord over my life because I would, "single-handedly" make a mess out of it. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for loving us. And thank you for loving our boy on the other side of the world.
And God, the next time I send my hubby to the store for 3 things and he brings home 6, I promise to just be thankful and realize how blessed I am to have a hubby who will even go to the store for me :oD
To God be the Glory....always!